Baby monkey is now over two months old. I can't believe how much time has gone by and how much he's changed. It feels like just yesterday that I had him and he's already smiling and talking. He's a very happy baby. He still doesn't really sleep through the night though and that can definitely be wearing on me. Thankfully Mr.IT is great about giving me a night off on the weekends and letting me go to bed earlier on some week nights.

He's definitely a Mommas boy (of course most babies are) his favorite place to sleep is still in my arms and he talks the most to me. Last night I went out for a bit and he was pretty happy and awake while I was gone but Mr.IT said he didn't talk much. When I got home and was holding him he was talking up a storm.

I love that he also will now watch us when we walk away/past him. He'll smile when he sees us even if he was just fussing. He definitely prefers to be awake, he fights sleep and is usually very happy when he wakes up. He's most happy when he's naked though and absolutely loves bath time. We'll have pictures of bathtime uploaded soon. He's also pretty happy when he's getting his diaper changed... he'll grin and laugh even if he was crying and miserable before we started changing him.

He's also turned out to be a very chubby baby. He weighs 14lbs 4oz and has the cutest little budha belly.

I definitely love being a Mom even when I've had very little sleep and just want to crawl into bed. He just has to smile at me and I get a whole new wind of energy.

My baby-momma group is pretty good. I'm not sure I'll be meeting up with any of the girls after but it's nice to get out of the house. I'm still just a little shy and some of them seem to have already clicked or they have a friend in the class already. We'll see how it goes. Either way though it's nice to get out and talk to other Moms even just for a couple hours a week.

Babies awake now... gotta run.

I've made one of the toughest decisions I ever had to make. I decided to pretty much stop breastfeeding. I had a lot of problems... first with cracked nipples then with the thrush. He's also been very gassy and it's worse after I feed him. He's still gassy with the formula so we're working out which formula is best but he's worse after I feed him. I'm still not sure I made the right decision. I can't stop kicking myself for not trying for longer... for giving up. It's just after 6 weeks there were still problems and feeding him is so much more pleasant from the bottle. I can't really describe the regret I feel about it. I know it's the right decision... I just still feel kind of like a failure. I know I shouldn't beat myself up for it... plenty of women can't/don't breastfeed and I don't think any less of them so why should I think less of myself....

On another note I finally uploaded a picture of one of the things I bought with the giftcard Stephie sent. It's the soother...



I start my "Mommy and Baby" group this Thursday. I'm really looking forward to it. Meeting other new Moms is going to be great. Hopefully I'll connect with some of them so I have people to get out of the house with during the day.

It's been rough without Mr.IT here but thankfully with the help of his Mom and Stepdad and my Dad it's been ok. He was really cranky Friday and Saturday evenings. Just like he was Thursday. It's pretty close to collic. Tonight was a lot better and I'm crossing my fingers that tomorrow night will be good as well.

Tomorrow I go for my 6 week check up at the doctor. I can't believe it's already been 6 weeks. Time just flies by like crazy. My little monkey is already so much bigger than when he was born I already miss how tiny he was.

I can't wait for Mr.IT to get back on Tuesday. I miss him like crazy. Monday is our one year anniversary. It's hard to believe it's been a year yet so much has happened it's surprising it isn't longer.

My little monkey is doing well. We're on our own for a few days. Mr.IT is in Chicago for a software convention until Tuesday. I'm a little nervous, yesterday evening was really hard. Baby didn't want to eat or sleep even though he was hungry and tired. Without Mr. IT here it would have been much more difficult but between the two of us we were able to switch off so neither of us went nuts trying to soothe him. I'm really hoping this evening won't be like that. He slept ok though when he finally fell asleep at midnight. Mr. IT was great and let me sleep all night so that I'd have a full nights sleep before he left. I'm still breastfeeding but we also give him formula at night.

I'm uploading more pictures... including ones from halloween. He was a pumpkin! So cute so check them out.