Yesterday (all the way up until the end of the day) was a very good day. Work was boring.. but that is nothing new. After work I went shopping with a friend. I was (happily) SHOCKED with the size of pants I can now wear. I have not been this size since I was about 17yrs old. I absolutely can not believe it. Now all I have to do is work to maintain this weight. Which should be easier than losing weight.

I decided after waiting nearly an hour after DJman was off work and hadn't called me that it was time to leave a message ending things. I told him that 'due to lack of phoning and some weird text messages left I have to say (I said it laughingly) its been real. Its been fun. But it hasn't been real fun. I'll see you around.'

I then met up with friends for wing night. As usual it was a good time. As I was leaving I got a reply from him. In a text message he said 'fine be a bitch'. I lost it. So did my friend that saw the message as I saw it. We quickly calmed down though because there is a guy that was with us (one of my best friends for many years) and if he knew what had been texted he would have gone looking for DJman.

We left the restaurant and I let my friend reply to the message. He replied with 'that was uncalled for. Some people need more attention and I still think you are a good person'. The reason he sent a nice message was to see what the DJmans reaction would be. We both figured him calling me a bitch was just reactionary and not actually what he thinks of me. DJman replied with an apology. We texted a couple more times. We are going to remain friends. (hopefully)

DJman IS a good guy. I do still like him. Its just at the point he is in life and with his jobs he doesn't have a lot of time. He also isn't used to actually dating someone and didn't know how to juggle the jobs and a girl. I think a lot of how he was especially when I'd see him at work was him going by my actions. I however was going by his actions. So when he'd not really talk to me while at Name that Tune its because I didn't go over to him. I could totally be wrong about him but since we aren't dating now anyway it doesn't really matter.

This is the first time I've cried over a guy in a VERY long time and while I hate the fact that he made me cry I am actually happy to realize that even though it didn't work it might work with another guy and I won't be single forever. In a weird way this made me have a much more positive outlook on myself and dating.