Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Thanks for all the comments guys. I don't think it's really hit me yet. One thing I know is I'll be ok. I'll move on. I'll get drunk this weekend to get my mind off of it. I'm going to spend some time with friends. I'll move on. Who knows what will come next. I learned some things with XMG so it wasn't a waste. I understand why he felt he had to move on even if I don't agree. I truly hope the next girl is the one he was looking for.

On the job front... I'm still looking. I had an interview today at a bank. I think it went well. They got me to fill out the paperwork that will be processed if I'm the one they hire. I doubt they'd do that if they didn't like me. I'll find out if I'm the one they want to hire by the end of next week.

I have another interview on Friday. I think I'd like the job I'm interviewing for on Friday better but we'll see. It sounds like exactly what I want. I just hope I'm qualified enough for it. I still have other options on the burner so I'm not worrying about it too much.

As much as the change is freaking me out I'm looking forward to doing something new.

9 Comments:

Blogger Motherdear said...

A very positive attitude, Kitten! With that kind of attitude, only good things will happen.

I see such a huge change in you in the past year. Can you feel it, too? You're so much more philosophical and have even more courage that before! It's exciting. I'm just sorry that growth comes about from pain, darlin', cause that's the last thing I want for you to experience.

Hugs, hon. Big MD hugs. I'm proud of you!

7:36 PM, July 26, 2006  
Blogger Danikabur said...

Thanks Motherdear! *hugs* right back.

I don't know if I'm more positive or just more used to getting hurt... and knowing that life goes on. LOL

12:48 AM, July 27, 2006  
Anonymous Stephie said...

Oh, Jellybean. Sorry that things are sucking right now, but I'm glad your interview went well!

And remember - Mr. Right is the one you most often find when you aren't looking. And they are there for you no matter what. I'm not sure what about you scared him off (or what happened between you), but if he can't love you despite your past then he just isn't the right guy. The right guy will love you for your past, because they will know that it is what made you who you are today. You can't regret what has already happened, because if even the tiniest thing was different than you would be a 100% different person now. So when that guy comes along who loves you completely for who you are today, they will not care what happened yesterday.

Lots of hugs!! And I'm crossing my fingers for you on the job-front. :D

10:43 AM, July 27, 2006  
Blogger Danikabur said...

Thank you very much Stephie. You are absolutely right. I know you have some idea of what in my past may have scared him off. It's just he sees me differently after knowing my past than he saw me before. He just can't get past that and realize the person he saw before IS STILL ME. lol Like I said I understand why even though I disagree.

It's ok. If he can't see (or doesn't want to discover) the amazing person I am then he doesn't deserve me anyway. :D

Eventually (hopefully sooner rather than later) I'll find the person who will appreciate me.

10:57 AM, July 27, 2006  
Blogger lowk said...

Sounds like the change may be just what the doctor ordered. Start fresh and new. You'll come out on top. I'm rooting for you.

3:09 PM, July 27, 2006  
Blogger Danikabur said...

I hope so lowk. Thanks :)

9:59 PM, July 27, 2006  
Blogger Penny Shagwell said...

Your XMG sounds like a complete moron. Sounds like he's looking for Miss Sweet-and-Innocent-Been-With-No-Man-But-Still-Shags-Like-A-Star. And I wish him luck with that - tell him to start in the convents.

(I know that may just be what I'm getting from it).

He's a moron because he gave you up over something to stupid.

You are FAR better off without him, sunshine, I promise.

2:24 PM, July 28, 2006  
Blogger Penny Shagwell said...

Whoops: something SO stupid, not TO stupid.

Apparently my fingers are in moron mode, too.

2:25 PM, July 28, 2006  
Blogger Danikabur said...

I don't think he necessarily wants a girl that is "Sweet-and-Innocent-Been-With-No-Man-But-Still-Shags-Like-A-Star" he just doesn't want to know about the not so sweet and innocent and been with other men part.

I know he didn't think me pure before finding out my past. He just thought me purer than I am.

Thank you Penny. *hugs*

4:04 PM, July 28, 2006  

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