My sadness of yesterday wasn't about the season. It was about the way I was treated by Dillon on Monday. I give him some excuse because he was quite drunk but I still do not appreciate being talked to the way I was and will not allow it to happen again. I'm not going to go into too much detail here. He hasn't phoned me (I haven't phoned him either though) to work it out. There could be a few reasons like he is embarassed or scared to call. Or he doesn't think he did anything wrong and is upset that I was mad. Thing is though the more time that passes the more mad I am. If I don't hear from him by the time I am done both jobs today I've pretty much decided I'll call him but I have a feeling it isn't going to turn out with us still together. SO in preparation for that:

Another one bites the dust
Another one bites the dust
And another one gone, and another one gone
Another one bites the dust

Now onto my plans for New Years Eve. I've been pretty undecided as to what I want to do. I was thinking I'd like to do something different than the usual Saturday night thing. I was thinking another bar or just have people over. Then again though I always have fun at Bo's and most of my friends will be there so why not just spend it doing what I like to do. It might be a little weird if Dillon and I are no longer together and he shows up there. (I actually don't think he will show up there if we aren't together since Saturdays there wasn't really his thing until he found out I went) B offered a solution though. We'll go to Bo's and if at any point for any reason either of us want to leave (more likely me wanting to than him) he'll have a bottle of champagne waiting for us at home and we'll toast the new year there instead. We'll bring whoever wants to come but if it's just us then it's just us. I doubt that will end up happening but it's nice to have the option.

I don't really do the New Year resolution thing. I have yet to see a resolution through so what is the point in making one. I might change my mind and settle on something before midnight but more likely I'll just resolve to let what happens in the new year happen.

I usually look forward to the new year with excitement. Wondering what will happen and how different my life will be from the year before. This year in some ways I'm almost sad to see the year gone. I've had a great year (despite the heartaches). I haven't had a year so full of fun and enjoyment and happiness in a long time. Yeah parts of it sucked but even when I was down I would always have fun with my friends. Whatever we were doing.

So I have them.... ALL of them to thank for making last year such a good one. I promise to do my best to help make your upcoming year a good one.

Now a story about last night. I got off work and headed to my friends birthday celebration (HAPPY BIRTHDAY D!!) and had a good time hanging out there. I was feeling pretty tired so I left around 11. When I was almost home though I decided I didn't actually want to be home yet so I turned around and headed to B's work to hang out for a bit and then give him a lift home. Soon as I got there I knew it was a good idea. I right away felt a little less down. With the music playing the hellos from B and DJguy.

Hung out there cracking jokes and laughing at their jokes. Put me in a much better mood. As B and I were headed to his place (almost there actually) I ran an Amber light. It had turned just before I got into the intersection and on normal roads I probably could have stopped in time. The reason I didn't though is because of how slippery the roads were. I figured if I tried I'd probably have slid into the intersection. Just my luck though there was a police officer waiting for the light. As soon as I passed through I said oh crap he is so pulling me over. Sure enough there go the lights. So I stopped and started searching for my registration and insurance.

Officer comes to my window and asks if I knew why I was pulled over and I said oh yeah it was because the light was amber. He says yes that's right. I handed over my lisence but told him it would take a second to find the registration and insurance. So he talks about how dangerous it is to go through the light. I say yeah that's actually why I didn't stop.. I didn't want to hit my brakes only to slide through the intersection. I then handed over the registration and insurance and he went to his car to write the ticket.

I was pretty upset about getting a ticket. It was my own fault but just my luck that a cop was RIGHT there when I went through. Not long after he went to his car he came back to mine and told me he was just going to give me a warning. He was like you need to be careful because this late at night and this time of year there are some crazy drivers out there and you really need to watch for them. I of course thanked him and told him I'd be very careful. Then I asked him where he was from because of his accent. He was like oh it's polish accent. When he left I turned to Bob and went wow am I ever happy my luck isn't gone from me for everything. Oh and that cop is CUTE.

I think I got only a warning because when he looked up my driver information it showed only one ticket since I got my lisence (or none in the last 7 years if that's all it shows). So he assumed I am normally a good driver. Which, I think I'm not a bad driver but I probably skirt that line..

So even though I was feeling down because of the boy issues and the having to work both jobs and various other things I still managed to have a good day.